FAITH ?

i have already said all that i wanted to, done what i could to my very best.
and yet he still said that he doesnt know if i meant what i said. 
why would i say something like that just to please him ? . . . 

those were truly my heartfelt words.
and even when i had said all those, i didnt mean to shorten the verdict time in any way.
i will still keep to 28 March 2012. 

but my only two questions are: 
1) if you dont meet me at all, how would you be able to tell if i have changed ? 
2) what is the difference between 'i dont wish to meet you' and 'i dont see a need to meet you' ?